Objects in the rear view mirror

[docwebster]

A year ago this morning I was sitting in the living room on Azalea waiting for the city to arrive to throw us out. I keep remembering everything that happened, how it all felt. I was so damn tired, so numb. I hadn't slept, for obvious reasons, and I kept having this weird sensation all day long that I was operating my body by remote control, not actually physically present. I remember feeling so cut off because I wasn't going to be able to connect with you people for days on end and that was making it far, far worse.

There's so much I want to say right now but I don't have words to fit to what I'm wanting to express. I'm just having a really, really hard time of it right now.

Comments

[rosefox]

I don't comment much, but I always read your posts, and I'm sorry it's been such a hard year for you. I hope next year is better.

[javagoth.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{ Hugs }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

[kshandra]

Do you want the key? I think you've earned the right to wallow in this one for a while.

*love, always*

[hnybny.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking of you C.
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[djenk.livejournal.com]

Hang in there, sir. *hugs*

[idiomagic.livejournal.com]

I love you, Doc. I'm so sorry you're having a hard time...Take care of yourself, my dear.
*hugs and love and smooches*

[helen99.livejournal.com]

If you have a small, trusted subset of friends on your list who know you well, maybe you could make a filter and tell them. Someone may be able to help out or at least talk to you.